Lance McCutcheon, currently a wide receiver for the New York Jets, finds it difficult to recall the specific events that caused a rift between him and his best friend from childhood, Connor Mills. Today, the details seem irrelevant; what lingers in McCutcheon’s mind is a profound sense of guilt over not being able to reconcile their friendship before Mills tragically took his own life at the age of 14 in 2013.

The two friends had a close relationship during their upbringing in Bozeman, Montana, bonding through their shared love for sports, particularly basketball. Despite their unbreakable connection, McCutcheon was unaware of the struggles Mills faced, which he reflects on with sorrow, knowing he failed to be there for him during his toughest moments. After losing Mills, McCutcheon sought solace by talking to family and friends to express his grief and process the emotions that arose from this loss.

In order to honor Mills' memory, McCutcheon has adorned his left arm with tattoos that commemorate their friendship, including Mills' name and the dates of his birth and death. This personal tribute serves as a source of strength for him, particularly before games when he often speaks to Mills and another friend who passed away in a car accident. McCutcheon acknowledges that everyone has their struggles and emphasizes not letting past negativity overshadow current accomplishments, such as his pursuit of a career in the NFL.

As an advocate for mental health awareness, McCutcheon strives to convey the message that it’s perfectly acceptable to express emotions and discuss challenges openly. His own experiences have led him to support organizations like the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention, especially during campaigns like “My Cause My Cleats.” He encourages those facing mental health battles to reach out to loved ones, assuring them that sharing their struggles can bring support and understanding from those who care about them.

After going undrafted from Montana State, McCutcheon was signed by the Los Angeles Rams, where he had a notable first preseason, leading the team in receptions and securing a spot on the active roster. However, his journey has been tumultuous, leading him to the practice squads of different teams before landing with the Jets. He now works toward solidifying his place among a talented group of receivers and hopes to make his late friend proud as he continues to chase his dreams in football.